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Oh hello,
its been eons since I last sought refuge in livejournal for my daily rantings about my pathetic life. Alright, let me tell you people once and fo all what has been going on fo th past few months that I have been missing from LJ.

technically after completing (like finally) th polytechnic life, I've been dedicating my life very much to Swensens'. Everyone around had asked me prolly at least 10 times on why am I still wasting my time there as a pathetic part timer and getting a pay which way pathetic-er( if theres such a word haha) I prolly have a thousand and one excuses to brush them off on why am I refusing to leave th place. like er, 'aiya im still young la', 'I might be gg to study next year so stick to part time first', 'soon la will be getting a full time job' and tons of other excuses that you can think of. My mother has been bugging me with this part & full time issue that she has given up hope on me getting a real job so now she'll go ' aiya you go work at swensens forever la. go sell ur life to them' My mother is sucha joke srsly. 
the real reason why am i still here is that S is my comfort zone. I seek that sense of familarity in S that I cannot find anywhere else in the world. okay I might not have taken up alot of jobs so Im in no position to comment much abt new wrkg environments and what nots. but srsly, I cant bear to leave th place that I grew up so much in. From th young and naive ol' sixteen year old, to who I am now, I think I really grew too much (okay la besides in terms of sizes ahemm) but still, looking at th photos of me when I first joined S as a part time service crew, to the supervisor that I am now, S has taught me too much. Be it the endless philosophies of life, the ways of indulging in alcohol and fags, the late night chillings and talks, the non stop remix naggings, S has given me too much. I found myself learning everyday from each and everyone there. Even th people whom I hated so much previously, I found myself seeking their help whenever I needed a listening ear. I made alot of new friends, and found some of my old friends back. S taught me to work hard for my money. I used to think that working is just a way of killing time. but S has given me another angle to look at it; an angle with more responsibilty behind all these senseless childish thinking. Now I put in double the effort to make my guest enjoy their dining experience w me, I make sure that they leave happy, and make sure that they are all attended to when they need help. I learned how to control my temper better, and not flaring up at anyone who comes in my way when th temper reaches brain high. haha. prolly its because th people ard me work double and even triple th times harder than me, cause they have a family back there at home to support, which makes me wna work hard to help ease the family's burden too.
like the old saying ' 家家有本难念的经' we all have different problems at home. but yet we cant see it as clearly as how outsides see it. we'll prolly go whining on an on about how fucked up our lives are, but yet at just one look our friends can point out to us what on earth is actually th problem thats gg on. weird isnt it? i can never understand this damn logic.

im rather happy w my life right now. cos i have all th moolahs to buy new shuzz!! total lovin em. perhaps one cay I MIGHT really leave S for good. but till then, I'm really to have met everyone out there in S and I hope that this friendship or rather KINSHIP I'd say will last for as long as we all live. I appreciate everything that you people out there had taught me, and though I might not be the best of the bunch, but I've definitely benefitted too much from you guys. LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER LA. :)

 

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The 2nd phase of life starts frm here.

Life sucks so bad, I wanna die.
on hiatus till i'm better.













Nah, just jokin yaw. im bombared w too many prjs I dont hv extra time fr entertainment.

Just two more months to go Juls,
just two more mths.

I don’t want you to go home tonight and say ‘I love Lady GaGa’
I want you to go home, look in the mirror, and say ‘I love myself’


 

Pictures by laviestabelle and her awesome Canon!

This was my impromptu countdown @ Pasir Ris Park on NYE. had an awesome time w the friends. The finger guessing was gr8 and we had a really orgasmic time taking our revenge on the satan. The puking was horrendous though. major eww. sick ttm. but I secretly love this countdown session. Thanks to the friends whom made my initially stay-home-and-complete-the-bloody-SIP-report 31st dec such an awesome one! :)

2010 will be better.
I hope!

 

Tdy's the last day of 09.
good day people.
 

√ I secretly miss my Double Bass. :(
√ I wanna go back to the orchestra rather badly.
√ I wanna be able to practice on the dbass every monday & thursday like how I did last time.

√ There isn't school tomorrow. (hurray omgz!!)
√ Make a trip down to T2
√ Need sleep.